this weekend was a shitshow. i trained for my job on saturday (that went great!) and then went to mr. fitz's house to celebrate his birthday. thank god san diego is not my hometown cause i threw up all over it. but, from what i remember it was fun. i did lose a shirt somewhere in the night. which leads me to question why my shirt was off in the first place. i am right now, right here, making a promise to not get throw-up-drunk again. i hate it. i need to start drinking some damn water when i go out.
e and i are talking and not fighting so i guess things are getting a little better on that front. my fingers are crossed so much that i don't know if i'll ever be able to pry them apart. i'm hoping we'll get to see each other sometime this week. see what feelings are there then and if anything is moving forward. it's so confusing. i know what i want, but i am questioning now whether or not i'll ever have it. that's a scary thought. i've invested a lot in this. when i believe in something it's usually worth believing in, but if you're the only one believing things won't change. at least that's how it feels.
i'm not a fan of confusion.
Uh yeah. Throwing up drunk is NOT fun. Nothing like making an ass out of yourself in front of strangers and then waking up with that distinct "wow, I puked last night" feeling.
ReplyDelete1. I adore your blog. I relate to you so much it's cray cray.
ReplyDelete2. I wouldn't worry about "never finding what you want". I have those thoughts sometimes, as I'm a single 20-something myself. It sucks, but it's made me realize that creating my own happiness is a hell of a lot easier than looking for a male conterpart to make that happiness for me. I'm sure you've heard it a thousand times before, just like I have, but it's true.
We'll find our Prince Charmings one day! <3 (And I can't wait to read about your journey to finding him!)
I'm still figuring out how to closely monitor my drinking levels. lol sometimes it's a diaster. Also I do hope that it works out...and knowing what you want means so much in the world of love and how you relate to another person. Sometimes we have to let them know that we ARE okay without them and that their position in our life is luxury NOT guaranteed. Reality check them. :)
ReplyDelete@carly ann especially when all the people from the night before are still there when you wake up. awkward.
ReplyDelete@riley thanks! i've learned not to push it. i am finally out of the friend zone with e and i'm looking forward to our second chance.
@chanel i would love to go out and drink without puking for once ha. reality check given!