i am not alone

happy birthday to my bestest (sam 2).

i still haven't quite jumped back into my blogging groove yet. i feel like i am spinning in circles so fast that my brain can't keep up.

tonight ultimately sucked. but the girls in my life that i love more than anything have held me up. sam 2's bday was tonight. it's crazy to think that we've been celebrating our birthdays with each other for almost 10 years. she reads me like a book and after the drama i had to deal with before her party, it was nice to have someone care enough to see that i wasn't 100%.

on the way home, i texted miranda who (true to her sex and the city counterpart) had "i am woman, hear me roar" advice. she tells me what i know and she knows that it does stick and it helps even though the truth freakin hurts.

and samantha. i know no matter where we're at in our lives, whenever we throw up the bat signal (or our c's) we'll always be there for each other. she texted me about the crap i dealt with today. she's the only one that knows all aspects of the situation. she made me realize that i need to channel my inner samantha. i need to be stronger than i've been before.

i suck at being patient and i suck at waiting, but knowing those 3 girls have my back and will hold me up when i can't stand on my own makes it much easier to deal.