little big things

so chances are that, if you've been reading this blog for some time, you've come to the conclusion that i make some pretty awesome decisions (awesome: ridiculous, irresponsible, inconceivable). i can't help it. i'm just that cool. so last night was one of those times.

last night consisted of newcastle, pizza, and harry potter. sounds great right? i forgot one more crucial element, edward. yes, we are speaking and more again. yes, i know that it will most likely turn out like every other time. i still have faith ok?! plus, when he sends me texts like this and i start laughing out loud alone on my car how can i say no?

"you learn from your mistakes", you say. preposterous. so, although nothing went wrong last night, we did talk. about things i never thought we would speak of again. he may hate me for announcing this to the interwebs, but e has been feeling jealous. now that, my friends, is a first in the span of this relationship thingy. i think that made him come to some realizations about how he feels about me.

where this goes from here? i don't know. i just want us to let it fall into place naturally. no more forcing and trying to get something to "work."

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she's your what?!

rofl and i went to court's birthday on saturday. we went out to dinner first since he owes me like 5000 bucks in gas. i figured dinner would do. we went to father's office in la. talk about eye candy. dayummm. not only am i a pro at undressing fine looking men with my eyes, but i happen to be an avid beer drinker and this was by far the place to do both. i got a pliny (mr. music's recommendation...a little on him in a bit). that is some damn good beer. we split a burger. rofl tried to explain to me how this guy gets his meat from the moon, or pluto, or something. i obviously wasn't listening too well.

we went to the bar, aka scene of the birthday crimes, an hour early. i met some guy that said he was a blogger but hadn't posted anything in almost a year. he then claimed that one of the guys he was with played for "da bears" and pointed out his cousin who was "da bears" wife. the "blogger" was cute. we ran into each other a few times throughout the night. and then it got weird.

the chick who was apparently blogger's cousin AND married, interrupted us mid-convo and full-on started making out with him...errrrm huh? obviously i walked away, highly confused from the incestual act i had just witnessed. flash forward 30 mins and i walked past the cousin who told me the blogger was looking for me. sooooo what? you make out with him then try to set us up? no thanks, girlfriend.

and then i remembered why i stick to divey bars.

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dilemmas of a drunken little

i wrote these down after the make music pasadena night with rofl.

1. the lines at del taco at 130am. i guess you would only feel my pain if you are from a state with del tacos. it's a common known fact that we surf city children have del taco preferences. some dels are better than others.

2. no open mcdonalds. what?! this baffled me. i would think that more drunkenites..ions...ins...uns? would want a juicy (which is more like spritzed when it comes from mcd's) burger, or a tasty mcflurry at 1:30am. at least i did. preposterous.

3. not enough 90/2000s pop music loaded onto the iphone. this is a terrible realization. michelle branch is fabulous when drunk.

4. living with parents. more specifically MY parents. they have a "no food upstairs" rule which is kind of ridiculous considering i a) am a 23 year old adult, b) can't eat comfortably on the couch downstairs because of the "no food on the couch" rule, and c) i pay rent (i.e. i pay for the room i stay in therefore i should be allowed to do what i want in it...within reason). so that leads me to sneaking food into my room like an undercover binge eater.

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shizza

that's rofl's favorite word. i figured it would be fitting for this post considering he will be making an appearance. so this week has been crazy. i found an apartment, which is actually a room, in a house. so i found a house. i will be moving in sometime in the first week of july. which is frighteningly close.
last weekend rofl and i went to make music pasadena. i couldn't tell you what bands we saw but they sounded great. the best part was that i didn't pay for a single drink all night. the worst part, a guy that i met up with there didn't even offer to buy any of said drinks (thanks bro!).

tuesday was an interesting day. i had my second shift at my second job which went great (i'm using great too much, great). i then texted charlotte (a girl i have know since high school who is so much my opposite that it makes us better friends) to see if she wanted to grab a drink. i ended up meeting her at her place of employment, which also happens to be mr. music's place of employment. to refresh your memory about music, he is the one that ditched me on my 22nd birthday. it had been over a year since we had seen or talked to each other so seeing him on tuesday kinda brought back a whole lotta strange feelings. we ended up all going for drinks after. mr. music did happen to buy me a drink unlike the lame-o at make music pasadena. then i kinda, sorta, maybe, did go to music's house after. oops...i regret nothing.

never to busy for ryan gosling

i'm swamped with work. i promise to give a substantial post tomorrow, but it's gonna be really tough to follow this act:

i think it should be a well known fact that ryan gosling has my heart.

don't be stupid, stupid.

so recently i edited my online dating profile. i was getting far too many messages from far too many guys thinking that we would get along just dandy-like. no. no we won't. so this is what i put:

i feel like i should have mentioned other things like:
- don't message me if you are losing half the hair on your head
- don't message me if your message looks like this: "hey!" or "yo girl, u fine"
- don't message me if you're MARRIED!
- don't message me if your profile says anything like "livin life" and in the what do you think about most section, you put "my future and how i will treat you like a queen/princess/my mother"
- don't message me telling me how you don't have photos up because you don't know who will find them but you'd be more than happy to email them to me. ummm, you're not some secret spy buddy, relax. the internet is not that scary.

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la-la-life.

i'm still dabbling in the online dating-sphere. luckily stuff has gotten easier since the e situation. i have come to the big realization that i don't think i'm quite ready to jump into a relationship yet. i'm enjoying being single and dating and not being tied to one single solitary person.

remember smalls (probably not, that's ok). we started talking/hanging out again. it's kinda weird. i don't quite know how i feel about it but he lives about 2 minutes driving/10 minutes walking distance from my house so it's kinda convenient. something strange that i have realized, he's not as small as i remember him being. i'm sure he would appreciate that statement.

i'm officially looking for an apartment now. like ready to move out in weeks if i find a place that quick. i cannot wait to be on my own again...third time's a charm right?

anyway, giving a shoutout to elle at skylarking nanny!! that girl has my blogging heart! and she is definitely living the nanny life that i wanted (back when i was nannying). i always thought my nanny career would turn into something like chessy from the parent trap (circa normal lindsay lohan). i'd meet some hot rich cousin or something and fall in love while on a camping trip...or something. anyway, this girl is all the way across the globe, in love with her man, eating awesome food and going awesome places. check her out yo.

even beer isn't helping

this is my car at the emergency room.

it's been a long week. i found out on monday that fish's brother committed suicide last week. his funeral was yesterday. i think i'm still in shock over it.

my tire finally died yesterday too. on my way to get my stuff from e's house. that was awesome. i love spending money on unplanned things. so great.

edward and i are done. i thought that after 2 months of no contact he would have grown up a bit, just a smidge...no. he's just as immature as he was then. and this time, i'm the one who isn't going to stick around. it's too bad, really. i was fine with actually taking 1 little baby step at a time. the things he said yesterday went too far.

i'm working 2 full-time jobs now and for sure moving out in july. i am seeing a couple apartments this weekend. it's a little scary but i'm so ready to get out of this upside down household.

other than that, i'm good. the week isn't even over yet. ugh.

most eventful part of your week?

my body's a zombie for you!

hat: f21 // skull shirt: brandy melville // pants: pacsun // shoes: bakers

oh, edward. we are just going in circles all the time. i'm hoping this one will be more of a straight never-ending line but we'll see. last night we actually went and did something in public together and then i stayed the night. it was awesome. i'm just hoping he doesn't let the worst of him get the best of him.

he shared some pretty intense news. he is going to be interviewing for a job that would send him to another country for 6 months. but the money he'd be making would make it beyond worth it! i completely support him! plus he gets 3 weeks vacation and 4 roundtrip tickets from there and back. so i could come visit. i think this would be really good for him. still...scary. and sad. but that's what you do for someone you looo......care about very much.

p.s. i redyed my hair AGAIN. i like this color the best so far! what do you think?
p.s.s. if you haven't listened to dead man's bones you must! especially THIS SONG. ummmm it's ryan gosling's band! how could you not love it.

do you qualify?

shirt: f21 // bracelet: brandy melville // leggings: f21

i swear, i get the strangest men hitting on me online and in "real" life. like i've said before, i seem to attract the jerks on these sites. apparently i attract them offline too. the other night, sam2 and i went to get drinks. within 5 minutes a guy had walked over and offered to buy our first round which turned into him buying only sam's first round (hi! i'm still here douche). when my friend eventually turned him down (obviously AFTER paying for her drink) he walked away like a sad little bird with a broken wing. poor guy.

so sam decides to go and tell him that although she finds him attractive, she has a boyfriend, but thank you for the drink. psh way more respectable and classy than i choose to be. i would have been over it in .01 seconds. so then he gets the idea to try and hit on me. i have a good eye for when a guy is my type regardless of what they are wearing. so after trying to get my number and me saying no (because uhhhhhhhmmmm you just hit on my best friend pal!) our conversation went like this:

me

you're just not my type. your more so hers. i'm guessing you guys aren't from here right?

jerk

no, iowa/utah/north dakota/some state that is up and in the middle.

me

and you're probably a "clean cut guy"...

that's not my thing. i like my guys "dirty." tattoos, scruff, an old grungy flannel, skinny jeans and vans. that's not you right?

jerk

no, never. but you're a hypocrite. you want a guy with tattoos but you don't even have any. that's stupid. you're a hypocrite.

me

i have one, i'm getting more, and my girl is back so you can leave now.

(laughs and doesn't leave)

no, really. get off the chair and go away. thanks.

so yeah, if you want to date little be a little stylish. if you own 1 single abercrombie item you are not getting me in or around your bed. don't get butthurt. i'm sure there is a girl out there that will love to shop at american eagle with you.

ps. i have nothing against abercrombie/american eagle wearing guys. they just typically don't understand my 6 in. wedges and skinny leopard print pants.

wait...i have a blog?

this thing is being forgotten way too soon. i just picked up 2 fulltime jobs and i'm trying to juggle those with my life and beer. mainly beer.

last night i went out with sam #2. this girl has been my best friend since high school. we're goin on about 8 years of driving each other crazy. we went to yardhouse. got hit on by an asshole who tried to flirt with her then when she turned him down he moved on to me. i gotta say i'm so proud of sam. she's been with her boyfriend for 6 months. met him on plenty of fish. but she hasn't changed a bit like some people (ahem...me) tend to do when they start dating someone. i love that about her. she is a constant.

we ended up going to a sex shop after. i devirginized her sex store experience. she wanted to get something fun for her and her boy/man/thing to try. again, i'm a proud mama. when we left we got in a huge accident. to see my life flash before my eyes with her with me was one of the scariest moments i could possibly have. we're both ok for the most part. she's a bit bruised and broken. i was in the passenger seat so i'm ok. still. wake up call.

another unintentional break

bah humbug. i keep saying i'm going to post more then i have a crazy week and that goes down the drain.

this week was filled with way too much drama. met a new person, he turned psycho. that was fun. i hung out with edward for the first time in a month and a half. we talked a bit amongst other things. i missed him. i knew he needed his space after his grandpa passed and his brother's mess. he needed time to find himself again. i think that it's been good for him. whether or not it was good for us is yet to be determined but after all this time i think i'l be able to take things as slow as he wanted.

best part of this week was my drive up to e's. my phone took me all the way up pch. i felt like i had driven to another state. it was amazing. just what i needed after a roller coaster of a week.

ps. you may have noticed that i skipped f-off friday. i will make up for it next week. so how was your week?