i started this blog as a place to sort of be my own version of carrie bradshaw. i had dated a few crazy people and had some crazy stories that everyone thought i should share so i did. but writing about the crappy relationships so often started dragging me down. and i started getting this weird feeling every time a new one would start. i'd think about my 30 day rule and i think it was almost starting to sabotage the good shit. i tried to shake things up a bit. change my niche and include more of the fashion side of things (i was a stylist at the time). didn't help much. and (not that this is such a bad thing) my parents found out about it and i felt like i had to hold back on certain things, which also didn't feel right.
then my computer was stolen which felt like (and i'm pretty positive it was) a personal attack on what i was doing and writing about. i tried to stay positive and keep moving forward but without photoshop and a computer that could handle graphic design it was hard. especially when i was tired of the layout but knew it would take forever to edit it.***
then i edited it. and i love my layout. designed the whole damn thing. H2T. it wasn't enough.
i feel like i'll start another blog another day and make it more "me." but right now, i'm feeling that quarter-life crisis begin and i need to concentrate on living and enjoying what i want rather than trying to find things to enjoy just to write about them. i'm going back to the old pen and diary sitch. i feel like i'm 14 but at least i'm not feeling pressured to write when i don't want to.
i learned a lot from this little blog. taught myself things (html/css) that i will use for the rest of my life. it got me a leg up at my job. but ugh. i just can't do it anymore.
so, farewell my friends. the email is still active so if ya'll ever want to chat, you know where to reach me.
***i'm super grateful for my very great amazing spectacular friend who made sure i didn't go computerless and got me the computer i have now. i don't want that to go unrecognized.